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Determined to Succeed
Taken from the Forum at www.jewishsexuality.com

I want to thank you for the work you're doing with the new forum and with your site in general. There's a phrase in the gemara, when R' Yochanan first laid eyes on the erstwhile bandit Resh Lakish. "Chaylech L'Orayta" - May you use your strength for the sake of Torah.


As for me, if I were to go into detail, I'm positive that Hollywood in your day had nothing on the kinds of perverse pastimes I've engaged in over the years. Spurred on by my incessant internet porn addiction, there's hardly a female of any race, age group, nationality, physical description or lifestyle / orientation that I didn't pursue sin with. Couples too. All this while maintaining the front of a frum, normal, respected family man. It's a wonder that I didn't suffer a complete breakdown. All this didn't come without a cost. My marriage suffers terribly, although no one can quite pinpoint the specific cause (of course I know the truth). I am on anti-depressants yet find myself barely able to make it through the day without the fix of porn and sexual perversion.
Last week I came upon this site and it has given me a lifeline of hope. I took an honest look at my typical workday and saw maybe 1 or 2 hours of work and the rest, well you know. But I have made up my mind that I am going to change and break free from the chains of vice that have made me a prisoner and I am going to do all of things that you have outlined in the 12 Torah Steps of recovery.
So you see, I'm very indebted to you for all you’re doing to bring the challenge of Tikun HaBrit out into the open. This time I'm determined to succeed, I know that failure is not an option that I can live with. The forum has finally given me the opportunity to express and confess my situation, albeit anonymously. I know I couldn't have done it otherwise. Now I just need Hashem and his loyal messengers to help me with the healing.